Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Setbacks and decisions

Hey there gang, and I know that there is a lot of you out there. lol. Especially that I have been so quick to put posts here lately. lol
Anyways, I hit the gym hard yesterday and do need to keep that up. I am 2 days behind and lots behind on my cardio. My trainer wants to start me on an obstacle course to help me out with the PARE.
To the title of this post. I had some questions about my application package and some of the forms and so on. I sent an e-mail to the RCMP recruiters in Regina. If you do not know already, I do have a criminal record. I thought that all would be OK as I have started the process to get a pardon. I knew that it might hold up the process a little bit and was expecting that. However, they want me to have a pardon "in hand" before I can continue. I totally understand where they are coming from and do agree. It would be pretty hard to explain graduating from Depot and being posted as a Police Officer with a visible criminal record. lol. Anyways, they have had to temporarily close my file until I have a pardon "in hand". I totally felt as the the wind was taken out of my sails, still feel like that now. It probably wouldn't have been to bad as the Commissionaires who are doing my pardon for me told me that they had the process down to 4 - 6 months...a private company can have it done in 18 - 24 months, and that is quick. However, when I called them and said that I had the info about my charge and stuff I was told that they had to call Ottawa because they didn't believe what they were told and needed to hear it again. Anyways, they are now able to do the pardon........in about a year. I felt like I was totally kicked all over. I was psyched and stoked about the PARE coming up and figuring that I would be gone to Depot by January at the latest and so on and so on and so on. Oh well. It is just a minor set back, I know. I just took it really hard.
FOR THE RECORD AND IF ANY PARENTS ARE READING THIS................................................... IF YOUR KIDS GET IN TROUBLE WITH THE POLICE..................BE HARD ON THEM. I have had this on my record for 20 years. I never thought I would need to worry about it or need to have a clean record. It has come up and bit me in the ass big time. lol.
IF THERE ARE ANY KIDS/TEENS READING THIS..................LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS.... YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT, BUT PLEASE, HEAR THEM.
Anyways, it will make it easier to build up a little savings and get a more solid foundation here and also allow me to get into better shape for the PARE and Depot. This should put a minimum of 5 months delay into everything. Could be worse. lol
The decision part started with me possibly leaving to Depot between Sept and Jan. My 12 year old is living with us here and his mother lives in another town. The big decision is to send him to his mother or keep him here. There is a slight possibility that I will still go to Depot during the school year and I think it is only fair that he lives with his mother or I. My wife is more than willing to keep him here so things stay relatively the same, so that isn't a worry. It is trying to decide what is best for him. I also have my daughter from my first marriage with her mother and another daughter living far away. Lol. I don't think a move for my son out there would be a bad thing, but we don't know until it happens if it is the right thing or not. I think part of it is that I also don't want to be far away from my kids. It has been difficult to get to see my two daughters and I don't want to miss all of them all the time.
Just a very nasty day today. I am really trying to turn it around and be positive about it, but I am having great difficulties.
I WANT to wear the Red Surge and Stetson. I WANT to be the perfect father, step-father and husband too. lol
Anyways, I am off for now
ttyl

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

perfection.. it is being absolutely perfect in the moment based on who you are and where you are in your life's journey. Thats it, and thats all. You, my love, are in every way... perfect.

Unknown said...

Hi,
I just read your blog and I am so sorry that you have hit a road block in your journey to become a RCMP officer. It is hard to have consequences from something that happened such a long time ago, but it really is a blip and it can be remedied. I really hadn't understood that day in the hallway of the court room that anything would come of it. We were simply sent away after the lawyers spoke to each other. The lawyer did not charge a fee, there was no fine, nothing happened. We were simply sent away. I went back to school and the district reimbursed me the half day of school that I didn't use. So I did not come away understanding that you now had a record. NOBODY EXPLAINED ANYTHING! So it is not hard to understand that you didn't come away clearly understanding the implications of that morning in court (or more accurately in the hallway of the courthouse).

I know how hard making decisions about Zach are, Sean. Perhaps it really would be best for him to live with Brenda at least until your world steadies a bit more. Dad and I know how much you love your kids and how hard it is for you to be a long way away from them and we admire how committed you are to being a good dad to each of them. And you are! Maybe it is time for you to take a little of the pressure off of yourself, though, because only you can take care of yourself! Besides being a good dad, you are also a good husband and a good son! So ease up! We love you and no matter what you do and how all of the stuff you are struggling with works out that will always remain the same.

Love,
Mom